What a weekend!!!

This has been the craziest roller coaster I have ever been on. Magic Mountain has some good ones, and Busch Gardens was cool too, but man! If you could capture this moment and let others experience it, you'd top em all.

It took 9 months of build up and suspense, worry and anxiety. Preparation, projects, showers, and appointments, but it was all worth doing over in a heartbeat. That's just what we got out of it. Another heartbeat and precious addition to our little family.

I never understood why people cannot explain why they felt what they did, or what the whole ordeal was like? I know why now... Its unexplainable. That's the bottom line. How can one person have every emotion hit them in the span of just a couple of seconds. Fear, elation, sadness, happiness, anxious, and spiritual.

I'll do my best. It is scary... Your watching the love of your life go through this messy and painful, complicated and foreign happening. Its bloody scary. Literally (ewww). It is so exciting though. I was on a huge adrenaline high. There is a lot going on and its hard not to get a little amped up for it all! With that came the sadness. Momma's in pain, she was new to all of this, its crazy. Then you see your little guy for the 1st time. He looks rough. That was an ordeal getting outta there. Sure it was a little cramped, but man was it nice and warm and safe. No worries in Mom's tummy; he's protected and fed. Its scary to see him get all roughed up and sucked out. I don't like to think of myself as a big boob or anything, but I was overcome with emotion when I saw him at that moment. As weird and frankly gross as they look, its a beautiful thing to behold. Its when I was able to hold him in my arms for that first time though when it hit me hardest. So hard I got choked up and ALMOST, almost leaked. Being a manly man of my stature, I had to keep it together (plus how could I responsibly take suitable pictures in that blurry eyed state?).

Anyway, its been a wild ride. Tiring in all aspects, but just as fulfilling. I am more grateful for my own parents now too. The time Tami and I have been able to spend together for these last few years has been great and I don't regret for a second waiting, but we have made the plunge into parenthood. I am planning on hitting the ground running, and I am not going to stop til my legs fall off! Time for Ollie and me to have some bonding time and catch the NBA All-star game! Peace out!